As the clock strikes 12 and Christmas Eve is upon us, I just want to take this final opportunity to say goodbye. I suppose I'm posting this here where I feel the least vulnerable. A blog I'm convinced nobody reads. By the way, I'll have you know that the awkward sentencing is because of my personality and demeanor. (That is to say, completely and utterly inept in "D&M" moments.) Well, enough stalling. I'm biting the bullet and doing this now. Let me start again. Properly.
My Sincerest Farewells
To all my dearest friends both here and there,
Some days I find it hard to believe that people so wonderful would allow someone like me (admittedly somewhat strange) into their lives. Some days I think myself, "Why?"; never coming to a solid answer. Other days, I just accept it go on my merry way. I will never know what it is that warmed your heart to me, but whatever it is, I can't thank it, and you, enough. I'm struggling to find words befitting of you all. I could master a thousand languages and still not have the right words to describe you. (I mean that in the best sense.) I'm terrible at this. I must admit though I've always kept one secret; a past I keep to myself for fear rejection and mockery. For you to truly understand and appreciate what you mean to me, I feel it best to share this.
Before I met you, I had no one. As a child, I would roam the playground by myself. Most days I'd try to find ways to pass the time before class started again. The painfully lonely experience hardened me into a cynical anti-social being. I was sure fate did not destine me to be with people. Until I met you. With your influence over the past years I have changed for the better. It is a debt I can never repay. The world may be an unforgiving place filled with misfortune and misery, but you're all proof that humanity still has a fighting chance. Whether or not we've had our final meeting, I thank you for all the memories we've shared together. I will cherish them until my final breaths. I hope that fate will reward you kindly in all your endeavors and bring us all together in the end.
Though I rarely, if never have spoken it, know that I love you all with every minuscule iota of my heart.
Have as beautiful a holiday as the time I spent with you,
Miss A. Marcellus